lose lose

hey you there, don’t frown when things are not so bright as how it used to be. look forward to the unknown, and open your mind to things that could be or surely much wonderful that what you are experiencing now. a wound is not forever unless you want it to be. let things flow naturally and it will heal itself even without knowing. once a while, let your hair down. let loose. but not too loose. let your lovely hair down girl. messy makes you happy.

fallen

do what all there is to do, and what counts
for there’s a so called mysterious way in life
that turn things around with a flash unaware
keep all that you love close to you always
one never knows when darkness will fill
every bit of your life and suck it dry dead

for the almighty some people are so fond of
hope for a miracle you will, but no wait for it
because if there is such a greatness in the universe
he  would not let a 2 year old go fatherless
nor should shorten the lives of people
with no apparent reason. and strike ruthlessly.

when all the benefits are of his doing and his glory
and the not so lucky ones would get the feedback
of mysterious ways and unexplained phenomenon
forced to live with it, forced to accept it, forced to worship

it is still hard for me to swallow the news
it is still painful for me to remember things
when remembering is not about reminiscing anymore
but remembrance of lost loved ones, things undone.
“hit me! hit me! why so serious?”

time

you just wanted my attention and time
never wanted to share what is mine
to comfort you and remove the insecurity
at the expense of my hope and sincerity
you need flirtation and showers of care
in the end, you still reject what i share

you made all things beautiful and  so great
can turn a one eighty, left without a trace
hope for a million, cause that’s how feelings are shown
an empty pocket will not get only time of being alone

…

i just didn’t know how to reply…
scold u, i couldn’t
love u again, i’m not allowed
hate u, it’s not healthy
care for you, you couldn’t care less for our feelings

all i can do, is to miss your voice, keep your smile in my memory
you are so sweet and cold all at the same time towards me

sigh
falling in love never felt this wrong before

damn

why did you take all up as high as heaven, to crash everything down in a short moment