numbness

today, there’s empitiness. i suddenly realised i am nothing for some time. sorrow-filled mind, that occasionally reminisce of sadness that could only bring me back to reality with the touch of the tear that flows down on the cheeks at every pull of the guitar string by mister johnson. come on there, you are better than that. all those smile ain’t just a mask or for show. you are not put onto this world to be a jester for others. i’m not seeking attention… i think i’m not. but any attention seeker would always disagree at that label on them.

so, the more i ignore, the more the temptation is built surrounding the goddess. the greek goddess who walks among us, at a humble mode, not attracting any attention… i worship you if i could.

in the air

guy likes girl
guy tries to court
girl thinks guy not rich
no stability
guy works hard
earns enough
guy gets girl
guy works harder, earn more
so girl can buy gucci
guy works too hard, ignores girl
girl finds comfort in a friend
guy finds out, guy gets angry
blames girl for cheating
girl blames guy for ignoring
guy says do all for girl’s shopping
but guy apologise anyway
guy gets girl back
guy marries girl with money earned
happily together
for a few years
guy earns a lot, girl shops a lot
girl spends time in mall
guy has too much money
don’t know how to spend
guy finds new sport
guy find new companion at work
girl still busy shopping
companion becomes the ear for guy
guy goes a lot of business trip with companion
girl still shops
girl finds photos of guy with companion
phone bills with companion’s number
girl gets angry, file for divorce
guy restart love life
girl goes back to shopping…
with divorce settlement

the end begins

at a blink of an eye
my hope just died
dreams of by your side
after from office we drive
wanting kisses of absence
long for touch of passion
waiting hopelessly for you
will miss your perfume
take my words and remember
will try to forget you forever
hate of you will be present
hope for chance you never given

goodbye…

psst psst

the rally of the holy matrimony
brings an end to anothers happy
things happen so fast, at a blink
feelings spilled, none received

as sad as how the conclusion is
it’s a waste we never tried to please
as together, we will learn much more
as separate, we never learn in love we fall

you gave the other a chance to love
all i asked was the time to know you first
you jumped into the first rescue arm
mine was opened, but you never come

i will miss what i will never have with you

cheers

whatever that is troubling you
don’t let it make you a fool
even if you fall deep into a hole
i’ll catch you, you won’t break a bone

those little things of the past
should never bother your heart
keep the sweet ones ignore the sad
let’s make some we’ll remember best