cold

the feel was as thrilling as the ride
and challenges are brushed aside
sudden a cold breeze came upon
so little for me to grasp from

she came from the mist of sweet
i fell to my knee feeling amiss
her truth is as blur as my eyes
each words, she makes me sigh

on the outside one may look angelic
thru my heart she uses an ice pick

where you i call

moments passed, time slown
days without your presence
makes my life unknown
most time full of boredom
my space need some loving

stand near, shoulder to yours
arm in hand, brush your hair
deep inhale, nervous even me
lids half closed, nose to nose
wonderful is how you are

lips so near, yet not kissed
fear of the first step
route of love and no turning back
touch those lips, hold your cheeks
words move to your ear
i wish for you to be near

sayang

i can’t go thru another one
where i hold another’s arm
while her heart has no me
cause she already has a hubby

could it be true of what i saw
would she be just making me fall
my words i hope do cheer her up
not a jester’s heart to be torn apart

show me some light beyond the sea
love stories that you and I believe
as i wait for your comforting smile
to wake me up from a long sad frown

ronely

i’m dumbstruck, i’m desperate
i’m alittle over the edge
i wanna quit smoking, permanantly
no more casual smoking
no more bangsat smoker
be less friendly, be less seeker
be more of a waiter
look for another fucker

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Have you ever asked your mum to buy the things that you liked in the first sight when you were a kid?
mmm… never. all the while, i was told to wait at the toys department and i’ll just hold and see the toys.

Have you ever kissed your parents on the cheek?
never. the only kiss i laid was on my dad’s cold cold forehead.

Have you ever hugged your parents?
never. side hug got la. walking side by side hugs my mom like girl friend, hahaha

Have you ever had a sing-along session with your family?
never… eh wait, does karaoke counts? yeah once, with my dad, “sealed with a kiss”

Have you ever cried with your family?
once, my dad’s” departure”.

Have you ever told your family that you loved them?
nope. never.

Have you ever wished you have a better relationship with your family?
nope. couldn’t ask for more.

Have you ever wished you belong to other family members?
never.

Have you ever said “no” when you wanted to say “yes” when you were still a kid, which according to adults; children don’t lie and are honest?
many times.

Have you ever tried to take your own life? Have you ever wished to have no love for anyone?
never. i love sex more than death.