ones end, anothers beginning

when … i don’t know. i guess little part of me, was sprinkling little stars of hope at the bottom of my heart. waiting for the inevitable to happen… i’m speechless… do i say congratulation? should i feel sad or happy? i don’t know. i guess it’s the right thing to do, to say congratulation, SY. i believe you made the right choice, for i could never give what he already can offer. good night.

dreamtrip

there are times when i wish that i won’t have to wake up from my dreams. just like the one i had last nite, where i was hitting on a waiter in a pub, and kissing her whenever she walks by me. i don’t know why, but we never talked. just kissed. only after she has left, i rememebered i forgot to ask for her name and number. then there was you, chiki. you were in my dream again, looking very different. different as in beautiful. so hot, so different. made me wanna call you up now to see how you look like these days. i mean in reality, not in the dream. it’ll be cool if you really appear as hot as in my dream. sigh, all this dreaming is really giving me disappointment in reality. but hey, what to do. just gotta learn to let go of the fear first, before welcoming anyone else. sigh.

easy & sure… or was it sure & easy… or something else…

she said, she has a voice that sounds like she’s high on helium. that is so true. i hope i can see her again, someday. i hope that night wasn’t a one-time thing. i hope she’ll move on and try some exotic food.

baby baby baby

why can’t you be a little sure of what there is, what is not
it’s a little bit annoying when things aren’t even half sure
a short reply would have made me more sure of what you are
when i make things happen, and no result, not even a respond

what am i doing here waiting for you, and you are far away
it’s always better when ignorance has the lead in the drama
when people get along without questions arise in the midst
making faces and making people smile and remember

hey you there, it’s been awhile. no it’s been long since i hear ya
what were you doing when i was looking up at the stars?
are you doing well and healthy from a distance of your burden?
don’t you wanna catch a hold of a moment and make the best of it?
anyway, i have a mattress now. maybe we wouldn’t have to get sand
in our pants anymore like before…

chiak sai la

wau, i didn’t know me travelling to batu ferringhi is nearer than pulau tikus coming to sungai nibong. mmm… maybe it’s because the name is longer, and the location is automatically considered far? mmm… nevermind la. people can say i’m living far, but i feel going to pulau tikus is near…